adrian
the butterfly effect
lyrics

[Hook: Adrian]

If you could go back, what would you change

What would you do again ever would remain the same

What would you give, and what would you keep

What would you take, and what would you leave

[Verse 1:]

I see an old lady holding the door

As I tumble out my wheel chair and roll to the floor

First thing in the morning in the grocery store

Not sure if this alcoholics body can hold me no more

I hustled up enough change for the whiskey in my hand

Tried to tell all the people but they didn't understand

Too many years spent sleeping in the gutters

On my hands and on my knees, eating from the rubbish

Roam the streets with very little keeping me sane

Too many twisted visions left engraved deep in my brain

Nightmares are right there and I don't think good thoughts

Happy memories became haze and days when I could walk

Make me hate those that have a life and could stand

Do you people know what I sacrificed for this land?

My aching heart can't feel the bladed gla** in my feet

Don't take a glance cause I'm just a face you pa** in the street

[Hook: Adrian]

If you could go back, what would you change

What would you do again ever would remain the same

What would you give, and what would you keep

What would you take, and what would you leave

[Verse 2:]

Evicted from my home couldn't scrape up the right rent

No heat in there all I had was the lights left

Spent months eating sleeping sh**ting in my mess

Thinking back to when my wife left, I was quite stressed

Guess all my addictions had got the best of me

Sometimes I wish to change my fate or was it destiny

Look up to the sky on rough nights wondering why

I saw our baby girl pa** in front of my eyes

Before it the thought of it tortured me

Only lived six days was born with deformities

Still the birth really filled me with joy

Even though I kinda hoped it would still be a boy

I was dealing with demons I carried with me daily

Wanted to carry on my name when I had the little baby

Thinking in deep ways til my soul is torn

Of the bitter sweet day I came home from war

[Hook: Adrian]

If you could go back, what would you change

What would you do again ever would remain the same

What would you give, and what would you keep

What would you take, and what would you leave

[Verse 3:]

I roll out the hospital on honorable discharge

I looked down saw my body with horrible big scars

Brave face but it was bad at night I would break down

I woke up and I was paralyzed from the waist down

Was in a coma for a few weeks before I closed my eyes

I was just another soldier with two feet

On all type of d** that set me higher

Shot by my comrade official name friendly fire

Everyone was screaming but I only heard her

And everyone was crying but I only heard her

As I looked down to what I had done

I had a split second to contemplate what I had become

Like it or not trained to k** like it was a job

Wild or not she was just a child with a rock

Threat in my eye and the power in my left hand